Will the Levee Hold?Posted: April 28, 2011
THE CAULDRON OF HOME LIFE BOILED OVER and I spilled too, making a mess and scalding little hearts and I wondered when I will ever get it right.
Evening came and so did the storms again, one right after another. We huddled together on the couch, listening to the sirens screech their warning and sang “Your Name is a strong and mighty tower….”
When the kids could stay up no longer, we put them to bed and risked turning on the computer to check the news.
“There’s been nothing like this,” they said, “one system after the other, with no breaks, no rest, no relief.”
From Mississippi to Ohio, the question’s on everyone’s mind: “Will the levee’s hold?”
We can sandbag and pitch water with a pail, but we need those levees. We can minimize the loss, we can replace broken windows and clean up debris, but we need those levees to hold.
I finally fall into bed, storm tossed from the inside out, teary eyed and worn. I wonder how much more I can take of these storms that have been stretching one after another. These storms our family has been weathering going on four years now.
“Can You hear me, God?” I ask, and laugh at the absurdity of it. “Really hear me? Because I don’t know up from down anymore. I don’t know right from wrong, I have no idea what to do.”
Lightning flashes bright through the wood blinds and thunder shakes the light bulbs in the vanity. I beg a few hours sleep before my shift starts again.
In the morning I drive oldest to school. He is strangely quiet, except to ask, “Why is it so dark, Mom?”
“The storm clouds are so thick son, it blocks the sun. The beams can hardly get through.”
We pass by ponds swollen to overflowing, trees knocked down, see broken car windows.
Storms do their damage. Boiling cauldrons burn over.
We drive by the lake with the overflow tanks, the tanks that have been pumping water under the road to the back up pond for weeks. Even the overflow is backed up, unable to handle anymore. The water laps the edge of the road, hungry to devour pavement.
“Much more rain and this road is going to flood. They’re gonna have to close this road down.” I mutter it to myself. I feel my own backup tanks overflowing. I feel the flood waters lapping at the edges, the panic of being swept completely away.
I feel the maxed overflows and the stressed levees and the storms that won’t stop coming and the sirens that won’t stop screeching.
I wonder how much more I can take. I wonder if the levees will hold.
I drive home, back over the road that gets closed an hour later. I think of the white picket fence Christianity I had for so long. Oh, it looked good, girl. It looked good.
Then the storms started and pushed that thing clean over. There is nothing cute about me anymore, and maybe I’d mourn the loss except losing that version of Christianity wasn’t a bad thing…just shocking for others who looked at me and expected to see the white picket fence, perhaps.
As I ponder these things, open and bare before God, hidden no longer behind cute facades, I hear His voice, a rumble deep within, quite unexpectedly.
Your levee’s gonna hold, my girl. Your levee’s gonna hold.”
And He opens my eyes and I see so clearly the storms of testing, the tearing away of all worthless, the strengthening of the Foundation.
The Levee’s gonna hold.
The storm may leave some tossed trees. The overflow may max out, the boiling cauldron may spill over every now and then. The living room may flood and the roof get torn sheer off.
But the Levee’s gonna hold.
They call at 10am, saying roads are impassable and schools are closing. It was inevitable.
But the Levee’s gonna hold.
Right there in the middle of the storm, mingled with torrent of rain on a few inches of soaked soil on a planet spinning in perfect orbit, a few salty, grateful tears.
Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house, and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the Rock.” Matthew 7:24-25