This Day

Five days in bed sick, head hurts, body aches…

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Last night’s dishes piled high in sink…

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Toothpaste smeared in hall bathroom sink and skid marks in toilet…

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Loads of laundry to wash and house to sanitize…

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

The sun came up today. Again. The witness in the sky testifies to God’s faithfulness.

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

The birds are outside finding their breakfast from the Father’s hand.

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

God’s love never fails and today is a gift from His hand and I will take it.

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Like A Bird

3:22am. The darkness seeps into bedrooms and hallways and enters a little boy’s sleep.

Since the time he was a babe, he has struggled with the darkness. Now at eight, it visits him again while he sleeps.

I hear him crying and Husband is the first to jerk blankets back and rush to his firstborn.

I wonder at this, after things are quiet again. What grand plan does God have for his little life for him to be so troubled in his vulnerable moments?

I have a hard time sleeping after that and as I toss, I sense His Spirit awakening me to words He wishes to disciple me with. “A sense of powerlessness…” He whispers to me again and again.

I become aware of Him identifying in me just that… ways I feel powerless. Ways I don’t try things for Him because I’m not sure He is for me in the trying.  Ways I fail my kids because I don’t really think I can make a difference, I’m not up for the monumental task.

The root of my powerlessness is exposed. Stinking unbelief.

I see the way powerlessness washes over me when the bickering starts and the needs and the demands and life are all coming hard and fast. I fall back on what I’ve always known: task mastering. And I’m sick with it and my stomach revolts.

Because I know Egypt’s whip is not as powerful as the Shepherd’s staff. Sure, Egypt’s whip drove and cracked and built bricks with its oppression. But Moses’ staff? Well IT PARTED WATERS.

I see that task- mastering my kids is rooted in a sense of powerlessness, and that powerlessness is rooted in unbelief. The kind of unbelief that task-masters self instead of being shepherded by the Good Shepherd.

Egypt’s whip is for the powerless and it is the truly powerful who take up the shepherd’s staff.

Words from Job wash over me and show me the path of life. “Who provides food for the raven when its young cry out to God and wander about for lack of food?” Job 38:41

I remember those baby birds. They cry for food to a God who cares and He shows their mommies where to find it for them.

Day after day.

And if God does that for the birds of the field, how much more will He do that for me and my precious babies? My babies who cry for understanding and love and guidance and nourishment and LIFE?

God has chosen me…has given me the Shepherd’s staff to give them comfort. Just like He shows the momma birds where the food hides, He will show me how to impart life to these little ones.

I’m not powerless. I am a Shepherdess who holds the power of the staff in her hands.

“God help me. Help me to lay down the task-master’s whip and take up this staff and do Your wonders.”

Littlest one cries and I go ready to shepherd…



What does Lovingkindness look like?

I’ve been studying examples of lovingkindness in the Scriptures. I want clear understanding of what I am looking for throughout my day, now that my goal is to give Him thanks for His lovingkindness.

So today I made notes on what lovingkindness looks like and I came to the story of Abraham’s servant looking for a wife for Isaac. He prayed that God would give him success and show him lovingkindness…and He did. His lovingkindness led him to the well and to Rebekkah, who became Isaac’s wife.

One way lovingkindness is demonstrated is through guidance.

Well. We’ve been looking and praying about a vehicle. We have not wanted to take matters into our own hands and have not felt peace about anything we have come upon up to this point.

But last night, as John was driving home from practical missions, he saw a van for sale on the side of the road at the lawyer’s office. A 2008 Chevy Uplander, 62,000 miles, still under warranty.

He talked to the gentleman. $9995.

This morning he and the neighbor, a mechanic, went down to test drive it. As they left, I got on my knees and prayed, “Lord, You show Your lovingkindness to your people through guidance and direction, and we need Your guidance in buying this van. If this is Your will and this van is ours, please let us know. Please give John confidence and direction as he goes today.”

About 20 minutes later John returned and said, “Well, we’re getting a van. I told the man we want to buy it.”

John and the gentleman had negotiated and settled on $9500 and John told him he would be down there on Monday morning with the check.

As John was leaving, the man asked him, “Did you used to live around here?”

John said he did. The man asked, “Did you used to pastor a church that met in Savon’s?”

John said yes, and the man said, “We visited your church and you came to visit us at our house.”

John apologized for not recognizing them and the gentleman said, “The pastor who came after you visited us as well and told us that you went on the mission field.”

“Yes, we’ve been there for eight years and are back now for school.”

They chatted a bit more then John left.

A couple hours after they left, we get a phone call.

“John, it’s Mr. Garrison. My wife and I have talked about this and we want to give you this car. We want you to come on down and get it.”

Wowzer!

What can I say??!! The family loaded up and we went down to meet this couple who had just given a $10,000 van to a family they didn’t know.

Talk about the lovingkindness of the Lord! I guess not only did He provide the guidance and direction we needed, He provided the whole kit and caboodle.

I just don’t know what to say other than Praise the Lord! His lovingkindness is everlasting.